The Iron Gauntlet
Just trying to figure out what's next for me. I have a really good life honestly, I just wish I had some idea about who I'm supposed to be. On this blog you will see plenty of the following:
[X] Personal thoughts concerning my life
[X] Left-leaning political ideas
[X] Science and technology
[X] Lots of anti-religious sentiments
[X] Atheistic quotations and ideas
[X] Pro-humanism / pro-secularism
[X] Philosophy and psychology
[X] Pro-choice / pro-gay rights
[X] Disdain for cultural pride and nationalism
[X] Humor that might offend you
[X] Fantasy and science fiction things
[X] Medieval themed artwork
[X] A Song of Ice and Fire
[X] Game of Thrones
[X] Dragon Age
[X] Star Wars (original trilogy)
[X] The Walking Dead
[X] Lord of the Rings
[X] Mass Effect
[X] World War II inspired posts
[X] Mythology and ancient history
[X] Plenty of Christopher Hitchens
[X] Lots of Dawkins and Sam Harris
[X] Lots of animals (birds,cats,deer,reptiles,etc.)
[X] Face Off on the Syfy Channel
[X] The night sky, moon, and stars
[X] New York Rangers Hockey
[X] Stand-up Comedy
[X] Posts that are overall funny
Moon of My Life
The Inner Machinations of My Mind
This handsome son of a bitch :)
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Stannis deserves the Iron Throne.
He’s literally the fucking Batman of Kings. He’s not the King Westeros that they want, but he’s the King that they...
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there is power in king’s blood
Which one was the dick leech though?
I was slightly unhappy with this...
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nooooooooooooooo
[laughs to keep from crying]
In the game of loans, you either repay or...
LOL, kitty
(via tacgnol)
I want to type about things.
Things that are currently bugging me.
Like how someone I care about can be so dense and blind, trapping herself in a rather stupid relationship with an idiot who controls her life.
Like how someone else I care about can change so much in a matter of a few months, and you can never really understand why they needed someone else to make them comfortable with those changes.
Or how you can worry about people you care about based on the unfortunate fates of relatives, but then lack the balls to tell them exactly how worried you are.
Or how some people foolishly think that they are always the exception to the rule when it comes to how certain things work.
Whatever, do as you wish, all of you. I wash my hands of this bullshit.
Ehhhhh, there is also a VERY FINE LINE between those two things.
Believing you need someone in your life is actually very close to being desperate… if that person is unable to be part of your life due to circumstances that are out of their control, then I can understand why you would need to hold on. But to hold on to someone who you are convinced that you need, who is not with you because they do not want to be, you are being desperate. And foolish. Have some respect for yourself and let that person go. Don’t give them another second of your time. It might feel shitty at first, but you end up growing from the experience. It makes no sense to dwell on what could be; make better use of your time.
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I finally found something of a job opportunity. I’m going for two days of training, tomorrow and Friday, alllllllllll day. I’m not complaining cause I know how hard it is to find a job but I’m so hesitant… I’m so worried. I need to break down these mental barriers I have put up, they are so limiting and stir such irrationality in my mind. The training I will be doing… I don’t know much about it, but I’ll be finding out soon. I don’t even know much about the job, except that I’m decently sure that it will only last for the duration of the summer. However, the moment I agreed to the training, I was emailed by another job that I applied for last week… they accepted my application and want to set up a formal interview (intimidating). That job, while I have literally NO idea what I would be doing, is guaranteed to last me a year. So what do I do? Logic dictates I give both a shot, but my mind races every time I stop to assess the situation. After I go through the training I suppose I’ll have a better idea of what I’ll be doing and I’ll be able to make a more informed decision.. but if I opt not to take it, then I wasted two days… two days spent on the Grand Concourse (quite literally the shit-hole of the Bronx). And what if I opt out, but then my interview at the other job goes horribly and they reject me? What then? Then I have no job. And I’ll be in the exact same position I’m in now. Fuck me. I don’t know how to make light of any of this. Normal people wouldn’t have done this much destructive thinking and worrying; I really need to chill.
On a lighter note, I have been eating less. Much less actually. Also, I bought a lot of fruit and have been eating plums and nectarines as snacks. I’m only two days in but I don’t mind that I’m consuming less food. I just really want Chipotle right now.. maybe this weekend I’ll treat myself.
The one day of the year where I am actually convinced that I will die in an automobile accident.
Seriously, it is a very strange kind of phobia but I always convince myself that I will be likely to die if I go out anywhere on this day… what is this train of thought??
- A defense mechanism due to the statistical evidence that logically states that there will be multiple drunk drivers on the road tonight?
OR
- Some kind of self-sabotage mechanism within my mind that is subconsciously trying to tip the scales of my decision-making-processes in favor of keeping me at home behind the TV/computer so that I experience life less fully?
WHICH ONE IS IT?!
